I Feel It's Time For A Blog

This is going to seem awkward, because I am intending that this blog expresses my frustration, but while writing this, or at least mentally composing this in my subconscious, I am having a fun conversation with Virgilia, which makes me happy. So for any awkwardness that isn't usually present in my blogs, I apologize.

I might as well continue before I digress from what I've been meaning to address.

I am going into a state of self loathing that I haven't reached before. I feel generic, I feel...

I can't even finish my thought from how auto-phobic I feel right now.

I feel worse because how overdramatic that sounded, and I feel worse because how self conscious I sound right now.

I think I'm getting stupider.
The fact that I couldn't come up for a word better than 'stupider' is proof.

Have any of you read Flowers For Algernon? It's about a man with mental handicaps, who gets brain surgery, and becomes increasingly intelligent, only to return to his state of mental retardation (excuse the term please)

I think my subconscious mind is plotting against me. I'm being somewhat facetious here, but there is some meaning to it.

/overdramatic blog

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MyGuitarSticks 2009-11-13 02:49:37

OVERDRAMATIC BLOG IS OVERDRAMATIC

ChickenGod 2009-11-13 02:49:37

Very.

TheSilverGuitar 2009-11-13 05:05:54

"I am going into a state of self loathing that I haven't reached before. I feel generic, I feel..."

Yeah, I feel exactly the same. All of a sudden, seemingly out of nowhere, I get these menstrual bouts of self hatred.
I blame puberty.

Joe, you're one of the wisest teenagers I know. The fact that you're comparing yourself to Charlie Gordon is just silly.

ChickenGod 2009-11-13 05:05:54

Thanks

TheSilverGuitar 2009-11-13 05:11:05

And yes, talking with Virgilia cheers me up a considerable amount.

9001 2009-11-13 15:24:50

self loathing is self loathing

i wallow in my own sadness from time to time

you could have been more clear as to what made you feel you were stupid
i've read flowers for algernon
TBH it was so generic it was shooting halo 2 out of its veins (ba dum tssh)
it was like a lifetime movie I saw it all coming a mile away

i'm not sure what you mean by feelings of "generic"
this isn't puberty
i am not saying i am a grown adult or anything but i never went through this hole "durr everything and me sucks hurr"
every other teenager did because they were TOLD to, they want to give them selves merit so they act in ways just to act in ways in order to try and give them self a false since of personality

you are better than that,
every little emo and his trendy shoes and funny hair is doing that
and every little IRL tough guy who claims his dominance with out proof is doing that
don't you start doing that

TheSilverGuitar 2009-11-13 15:46:17

Also, the point of Flowers for Algernon isn't your subconscious taking over you. You probably already knew that, but it seemed like you were implying that.

MyGuitarSticks 2009-11-13 17:11:41

SILLY CHARLIE GORDON IS JUST SILLY

TheSilverGuitar 2009-11-13 17:39:23

THILLY

SourPuddle 2009-11-13 21:16:47

Dude.
Dude.
"LET ME TYPE OUT MY PROBLEMS FOR THE INTERWEBS PEOPLE TO COMMENT AND GIVE ME ADVICE ON HUR"

Don't do it!

ChickenGod 2009-11-13 21:16:47

I wasn't asking for advice, just venting more or less.